Mom – Day 225
I am still so worried about Zach. I am so worried about him leading a convoy – without his team. If you want to feel some of my worry – just watch a Youtube video for the 173rd Airborne or anything from the conflicts in Afghanistan or Iraq. I hate worrying so much and I am so tired about worrying all the time.
I use to wonder about people that seemed so happy and then you find out – oh, they are getting a divorce, or did you know that so and so is suffering from … - or some other surprising or shocking news. I use to wonder how did I not notice this, or how did everyone miss the signs? Now I realize how easy it is. I think it is so easy to perform your daily duties and go about your obligations and all the while you feel a weight on you just getting heavier and heavier. I think I often don’t notice what my friends, family, and colleagues are going through. I know Zach is confident but I wonder how heavy is his burden, his weight that is on him. I am so sad, I just want him home. I want to close my eyes and open them only when he is out of that place.
I Love you Zach – I wish I were as strong as you – I wish I could trade places with you.
I love you – love your mama