Day 121 Dad

Another day in our lives keeping on keeping on. Now that the house has gotten a little quieter at the house but I have a gnawing that just won't go away. As we get closer to the day that Zach will leave Afghanistan and redeploy to Germany I get more nervous and I just want all of them to stay focused and ready. It seems that things are really picking up and getting hot and now Ramadan is around the corner. I am so looking forward to Christmas and having him home and just hugging him.

Over the past two or so weeks we have had Ju Ju and her family here, Marjo was here, Lisa's sister Julie was here with her kids and now Eline has come back and Lisa's brother Jacob, it has been fun having everyone here and enjoying our time together. It was so hard to send Marjo home and then Ju Ju and her family the next day I love these kids like my own, they are so special to me! Sometimes I feel so guilty I feel guilty because I am laughing and having fun while Zach is living in a tent in intense heat and in constant danger.

I need sleep I need the knot in my stomach gone I need my little boy home safe and sound. You are superman, I love you Zach.