Mom – Day 342
This is only day 342, I can’t imagine the rest of this blog, at least 341 more entries! For the reader, this is a Prozac blog. Everyday reading about someone’s agony must be depressing. I hope the reader has invested in some good wine or a nice cup of tea.
I find myself not watching, reading or listening to the news as much. I say it is because I am just busy but in reality, I am avoiding it a bit. I just need a little less right now. A little bit of ignorance is bliss.
Today, one of Zach’s friends stopped by the house. He helped shovel the deck and the front – today was a snow day. He stayed most of the day to include dinner. It was nice to hear everyone talking around the dinner table. It was also nice for this young man to stop by the house. I miss having all of the kids over and I hope my kids knew that I did enjoy them and their friends.
I don’t know exactly where Zach is. I am worried about him. I don’t think he got his knee pads just yet and I know that he is going to be needing them. I will feel so much better when I actually get the opportunity to speak to him. Say an extra prayer for him.
Zach, I love you – be safe
xoxoxoxo
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Day 343
Mom – Day 343
I have been so busy today with so many things on my mind that I forgot to take my medicine until the late afternoon when I finally put two and two together. I finally realized why I was feeling so bad – you see that is my problem, I forget things and then a domino effect happens. Yesterday I was so nervous about Zach, today I feel different. Today I feel like I don’t want to breath to hard because I don’t want to jinx anything. I don’t know why the change in feelings but that is how I feel. He is so young.
If you didn’t get to watch the Youtube movie Remember Me , check it out.
Take care Zach – Be Safe
xoxoxoxoxoxxo
I have been so busy today with so many things on my mind that I forgot to take my medicine until the late afternoon when I finally put two and two together. I finally realized why I was feeling so bad – you see that is my problem, I forget things and then a domino effect happens. Yesterday I was so nervous about Zach, today I feel different. Today I feel like I don’t want to breath to hard because I don’t want to jinx anything. I don’t know why the change in feelings but that is how I feel. He is so young.
If you didn’t get to watch the Youtube movie Remember Me , check it out.
Take care Zach – Be Safe
xoxoxoxoxoxxo
Monday, December 7, 2009
343 and a wake-up Dad
Thought about Zach a great deal today even though I talked to him yesterday. Words he said yesterday keep resonating in my mind, lockdowns of communications to prevent word of casualties from getting released before official notifications. This is real it is not a game, I hope all the young men and women realize that! Lisa was upset today because she could not buy Zach a PEZ dispenser for his box, because if it was lost it could be used to make a bomb by the bad guys! Again today Lisa is worried about Christmas, I told her we have to do a regular Christmas for our family and Victoria as well as Marjo! She is really stressed about numerous things and I am worried. We have to remain strong. Zach you are superman, we will be fine and strong. This is all going to go by quickly and you will have stories to tell your grandchildren Zachman! I love you and miss you!
Day 344
Mom – Day 344
Pez – that is what did it! Today I went to Rite-Aide to pick up some things for Zach and then I went to the candy and holiday section. I was grabbing things to fill up one of Zach’s boxes when I went to grab a Pez dispenser. I always give – or should I say Santa always gives the kids a Pez dispenser for Christmas. (There are certain “musts” during certain holidays, like Kinder eggs for Easter). I went to pick out which Pez I wanted and I picked up a reindeer one (I do have Marjo from Finland living with us and she eats reindeer so I thought this would be cute) and then I thought about the container. I thought, “Oh my God” what if this Pez container could be used for something against the soldiers. I know that the Taliban goes through the garbage of the soldiers and they use their rubbish to hide bombs and other horrible things. All these things went through my head and I started to cry because I couldn’t buy his Pez dispenser. I hate it! (it – I don’t know what “it” is but I can’t erase that sentence because that is what I feel) I came home and told Galen, all in tears and then he told me “Lisa go ahead and buy it, afterwards Zach can just crush it and no one will have to worry about the container”. I know it sounds stupid but I didn’t think it through - but now I do feel better knowing that I can buy him his Christmas Pez dispenser!
I love you Zach
Be Safe
xoxoxox
Pez – that is what did it! Today I went to Rite-Aide to pick up some things for Zach and then I went to the candy and holiday section. I was grabbing things to fill up one of Zach’s boxes when I went to grab a Pez dispenser. I always give – or should I say Santa always gives the kids a Pez dispenser for Christmas. (There are certain “musts” during certain holidays, like Kinder eggs for Easter). I went to pick out which Pez I wanted and I picked up a reindeer one (I do have Marjo from Finland living with us and she eats reindeer so I thought this would be cute) and then I thought about the container. I thought, “Oh my God” what if this Pez container could be used for something against the soldiers. I know that the Taliban goes through the garbage of the soldiers and they use their rubbish to hide bombs and other horrible things. All these things went through my head and I started to cry because I couldn’t buy his Pez dispenser. I hate it! (it – I don’t know what “it” is but I can’t erase that sentence because that is what I feel) I came home and told Galen, all in tears and then he told me “Lisa go ahead and buy it, afterwards Zach can just crush it and no one will have to worry about the container”. I know it sounds stupid but I didn’t think it through - but now I do feel better knowing that I can buy him his Christmas Pez dispenser!
I love you Zach
Be Safe
xoxoxox
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Day 345
Mom – Day 345
Well I saw Dal’s blog and he already said we had an opportunity to talk to Zach. We managed calling him via a Skype call. It was so nice to talk to him and since we were using our computer, both Galen and I could hear him without a problem. Of course, we got cut off several times but it was still worth it. So far he has only received two boxes. He did say that he was doing okay because people send care packages for the soldiers – people that don’t know these soldiers but want to do something for them. That was really nice to hear.
Please keep Zach in your prayers and for the family that will get that dreadful news. This week will be long; I already can’t wait to hear from him.
Zach I love you – Be Safe
xoxoxox
Well I saw Dal’s blog and he already said we had an opportunity to talk to Zach. We managed calling him via a Skype call. It was so nice to talk to him and since we were using our computer, both Galen and I could hear him without a problem. Of course, we got cut off several times but it was still worth it. So far he has only received two boxes. He did say that he was doing okay because people send care packages for the soldiers – people that don’t know these soldiers but want to do something for them. That was really nice to hear.
Please keep Zach in your prayers and for the family that will get that dreadful news. This week will be long; I already can’t wait to hear from him.
Zach I love you – Be Safe
xoxoxox
344 and a wake-up Dad
Talked to Zach and felt better. Though we were concerned when he said one of his friends was wounded and another soldier who he didn't know was killed. My heart just sank a family somewhere unknown to us right now is going to be finding out that their loved one will not be coming home! It is almost too much to take! Zach did not seem too shocked. I think they are too much on edge to think about things like that! I pray for his and his units safety. I suppose you have to become a little desensitized to keep on going! We talked to him and for us right now that is huge! I felt even better when he had me go on ESPN.com to set his fantasy team. He is still our little boy. I love and miss you Zach. You are superman, and I will give you the biggest hug when you see me next! I love you son, I love you, God bless you and keep you safe! Your Dad!
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Day 346
Mom – Day 346
Today is Chester Greenwood day – the guy that invented the earmuffs – and Galen put his deer chili in the chili contest and he won first place. That was so nice to see him smile and everyone commenting on his cooking skills. In fact, he ran out of the chili before our family came around to try it. Our exchange girl Marjo was in the parade along with our nephew Derek. The day was beautiful and it even started to snow. It was a good day.
It was also a sad day because for the first time it felt like the Christmas season was upon us. I feel bad because I had a dispute with my daughter and because Zach is not here. He is not here to have a chili ‘throw down’ with his Dad. He is not here for his favorite holiday. Last night I was watching “Home Alone” on TV, Zach’s favorite Christmas movie and he wasn’t here to share in it. I can’t wait for my daughter to come home so that I have at least one of my kids home. I just wish Zach would be here too. I will worry about him everyday until I know he is safe. I was hoping that I would hear from him but I haven’t. I think Christmas and the Christmas season is an important time for me to have my family. One day at a time – that is all I can do.
I Love you Zach and Ash.
Zach Be Safe
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Today is Chester Greenwood day – the guy that invented the earmuffs – and Galen put his deer chili in the chili contest and he won first place. That was so nice to see him smile and everyone commenting on his cooking skills. In fact, he ran out of the chili before our family came around to try it. Our exchange girl Marjo was in the parade along with our nephew Derek. The day was beautiful and it even started to snow. It was a good day.
It was also a sad day because for the first time it felt like the Christmas season was upon us. I feel bad because I had a dispute with my daughter and because Zach is not here. He is not here to have a chili ‘throw down’ with his Dad. He is not here for his favorite holiday. Last night I was watching “Home Alone” on TV, Zach’s favorite Christmas movie and he wasn’t here to share in it. I can’t wait for my daughter to come home so that I have at least one of my kids home. I just wish Zach would be here too. I will worry about him everyday until I know he is safe. I was hoping that I would hear from him but I haven’t. I think Christmas and the Christmas season is an important time for me to have my family. One day at a time – that is all I can do.
I Love you Zach and Ash.
Zach Be Safe
xoxoxoxoxoxo
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